Okay. I know I know I know. I suck at updating this thing regularly! But turns out so does my mom! And my sisters! So I’m in good company. But they’re out there kicking butt and taking names so they don’t have time to blog about it!

Anyways, it’s been a looooong time since I’ve last blogged and a LOT has happened.

First things first. I made it back from Haiti! I hope I didn’t keep any of you wondering and worrying. But yes, I am home safe and snuggled with my booosh.

I had a very busy last couple of weeks staying at the Children of Israel Orphanage. I had 27 kids begging me to stay and loooong list of things I still wanted to do before heading back to the good ol’ 248.

To sum it up in a really long run-on sentence: We talked, we giggled, we snuck out of bed, found a ladder, and watched the stars on the roof while talking about anything and everything, we played soccer barefoot until we were laughing too hard to run, we tickled, we found an extra mattress and squeezed it on the floor in their room and Mirline hit me in the face while she was sleeping, we cried, we painted, we sang, we danced, we laughed until Dina couldn’t breathe and I almost peed my pants, we talked until the sun came up, we prayed, we praised, and we thanked God for all the beautiful moments we had together.

Whew. That was a long one. Big apology to any English teachers I had that may be reading this! But honestly, how else can I put it? Those last two weeks were full to the seams with love, fun, and Jesus. And I loved every second of it.

Alrighty…let me see…any other interesting news in the craziness that is my life? Well, I just finished my first semester of my last year of college! Wahoo! I’m currently working on filling out internship applications and job applications. Makes me feel so grown up. Except my applications are a little different because they’re all located in HAITI. That’s right, people. I’m sure you were alllll thinking that I just had to get a little Haiti out of my system. That after four months I’d be back to reality looking for a 9-5 job like every other levelheaded college graduate. Nope. (Sorry, Mom)

Instead, I’m looking into any and every opportunity to work full-time in Haiti. Who knows what will happen. (Oh, wait. I know Who!)

“I have a plan for you. It’s gonna be wild. It’s gonna be great. It’s gonna be full of Me.”

- inspiration compliments of the Holy Spirit via Jesus Culture

I tried, really really tried, to imagine my life in the states living the “American Dream”. I’m sorry, but I just don’t know if I can do it. And more than anything, I feel God continuously pulling me back to Haiti.

The burden He has placed on my heart for those people, those children, that beautiful place. He is breaking my heart to do His work there. To be His hands and feet. To see them and love them like He does. That is not something to be ignored and I am happy to do it.

But I can tell you one thing, it is noooot an easy thing to see, hear, or follow God’s will. I pray a constant, fervent prayer that He would just show me the path. I want to live out His calling on my life, but first I gotta see it clearly! It is so hard to just step out in complete and total faith and know He’s got everything under control. And, of course, I know that He does, but believing it and saying that you believe it, and then being faced with a huge challenge where you just have to step out of the boat and trust Him are two totally different things.

Again with the run-on sentences. Lol.

Anyways, I’m working on it. And I am so super duper far from perfect, it disgusts me sometimes. I’ve had a lot of those “what-the-heck-are-you-doing-you’re-being-a-moron” moments lately.

But you know what, folks? We have a forgiving, loving, and gracious God who loves me even when I act like moron!

Well, anyways, here it is. 11:55pm on December 8^th. I’m leaving for the airport in four and a half hours. I’m basically packed now. Thank goodness. Today’s been a crazy day, but a good one.

I am so ready to be back in Haiti right now. It’s been a little easier being away from the kids this time since it was only four months and I was able to text them everyday. But still. My heart is in Haiti. I belong in Haiti. It’s where I feel the happiest. It’s where I feel at home. And I know it’s where God wants me to be at this time in my life.

Oh, also, THE KIDS ARE FINALLY MOVED INTO THE FIRST CABIN!! Woo hoo woo hoo!! Our God is soooo good all the time! Can’t wait to sleep in their new rooms with them and see Pastor Israel’s vision becoming a reality! I’ll be sure to post tons and tons of pictures when I get back. And then some more.

I’ll be back stateside on Christmas Eve. Please keep my team and our travels in your thoughts and prayers. Also, if you could say a little extra prayer for my sweet babies in Haiti that would be very much appreciated. Oh, and pray there’s no freak snowstorm to cancel my flight so I can make it back for Christmas Eve church with my American fam!

Also, (geez, I know I’m being crazy with the prayer requests!) please just pray that I would hear God’s calling clearly and undoubtedly. That the Holy Spirit would just consume me and fill me. I just want to see others as Christ would see them and continuously act as He would like me to act, instead of the goober I usually am.

I just can’t wait to be back in Haiti. At home.